So I made myself a promise earlier today as I was sleeping the day away. I'm not going to smoke or drink at all during the coming fall semester. I understand that there's no proof that drugs or alcohol effect studying or sleeping habits, or loss of motivation, but I don't care. It's worth a shot, and I've been without mind-altering substances for 19 years of my life, so I think I can go a few months. "Everything in moderation" is a good way of looking at things, but I don't have the confidence to support such a claim. I want my mind to be clear. I want to get straight A's. Hell, it's possible, if not probable. I understand that as well, but eliminating these things from my life can do nothing but help me. That's how I truly feel. So beginning the first day of class, I will stop consuming alcohol and smoking until my last final exam is over.
I guess that's all I really wanted to say. Just wanted this written somewhere so that I can reference it if I somehow find myself in a weakened state, susceptible to influence and peer pressure. I have no doubt it will surround me, but I just. don't. care. School is coming #1 this fall, and I have to prove to myself and others that I can handle this whole college thing.
I'm kind of hungry. Going to grab a quick bite to eat before it's off to bed. (Gotta barricade myself in my room before Mom finds out I've been up all night again. *snickers*)
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